A few weeks too late and a dollar or more too short, huh? I know, I know. I have been absent for too long here. I want to commit to writing here if not daily, at least weekly again, but every time I set that goal for myself I drop it within weeks. Thus, I’m not going to set that as a goal, I’m just going to write when the mood hits my fancy. So here we are, a new year, a new beginning, right? Well, it feels like it to some degree in some areas of my life. In some other areas, it seems like it’s the same-old-same-old… although I have to say because my life is very soon to be in flux, the anticipation of change has me feeling excited in a way that nothing really does feel the same or old.
I do want to update you on my birthday weekend and my parents’ 2-week visit, back in the Fall. That Galena 3-day trip was the highlight of 2017. As I look back at the year, I think both visiting Nick in Pittsburg (the last post I shared) and then going away on a road trip to Galena with Mike, the boys, and my parents, were the overall best things of 2017. December in Miami wasn’t too bad either, so I guess the trips, the get-aways, the being and doing something different was what I truly enjoyed and thus best remember of the year. Sophie’s visit and all the fun outings we had is also something I remember about 2017 with fondness. And also Mike and I embracing the Keto Cleanse in September, changing the way we eat, losing weight and essentially changing my relationship with food, was also a decent highlight. I guess change was name of game in 2017, and I embraced it wholeheartedly, and now look back on it fondly.
It seems contradictory though because I frequently say I don’t like change. I think I have a complex relationship with change. I like the reassurance of routine, to know what’s coming next and not having the anxiety of anticipation for the future. Thus when things run as they should, as expected, in time and shape, I feel secure. But I also get bored of sameness with time. I tend to think 4 to 5 years is my limit with sameness, and thinking about the years I have now in Chicago (almost 8), I seem to be overdue for a major overhaul. I like sameness until I’m bored with it and I don’t like it anymore. And right now, for some years now, I’ve been needing a change, a big one. A change of work, a change of address, a change of perspective in life. A big change in my daily routine. And I think, in fact, I know, 2018 will bring that with it: a big, unequivocal change for me in several of the buckets of my life.
I’ll let you know how things progress. I’m sure I’ll get the urge to write about it as it happens, so I’m positive I’ll be back here often this year, much more so than the previous one. I’m still wary of how much to share in this space and trying to find a balance in my voice when I merge the professional with the personal. But I know I can do it, and if I waver, if I have doubts, I can always write about that as well. So, I’ll be back. I’ll keep you posted as the ball of change continues to roll, particularly when I begin to glean where the ball is taking us next. Here’s to 2018, and the changes it will bring!