I’ve been feeling a little off lately. Emotionally, that is. Mike and I broke up last weekend, and it’s been a sad week for me. Missing him has opened up the melancholy I feel when I think about NY, so it’s broken heart meets homesickness, which is not a pretty state to be in.
I was listening to music on my walk today and a couple songs rang true. There’s something about music, that just stirs up emotions in me. I can’t really control it, but certain songs reveal happiness, sadness, invigoration, and melancholy for me, as easily and profoundly, as if I was living the actual experience. Maybe that’s why I love music so, it makes me feel.
“And I see losing love
Is like a window in your heart
Everybody sees you’re blown apart
Everybody feels the wind blow” Graceland – Paul Simon
“And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home” Home – Michale Buble
There will be better days, but for now, I just wish I had my life back. You know, the one in which I was happy every day, whenever that was.