When I went searching for last year’s resolutions I flipped through my old posts and noticed there was some good, heartfelt sharing back then in the day. It seems something happened to my writing and my sharing in this blog. I’ve been noticing the change for a while now too.
It all started when I began to question what I would share and what I would not. Once I started to think about who was reading what I wrote, who knew me, who didn’t know me but thought they did, it all started to change. But that’s not the only thing which influenced my sharing or lack thereof. My life also changed a bit and with it what I was able to share in a public forum.
Since I started to date Jason I obviously had no more dating adventure stories to blog about, and we all know how “fun” those were. Also, after what happened with t.b.w.t.b. I decided to not blog about the current guy I was seeing, so I’ve kept my thoughts and feelings about Jason and our relationship to myself, or at least off the blog. In regards to work matters, I think we all learned from dooce that it’s safer to not go public with work related complaints, although I did vent a bit this week on twitter and FB, which I guess I shouldn’t have done.
So you see, the topics I feel I can write about have been limited and now, more frequently than not, I find myself just retelling whatever I did and posting photos as proof, which really doesn’t seem like more than an archive of my daily life. I am a reflective person. I like to think. And writing about my thoughts helps me make sense of things that occur and people around me, as well as better understand what life is all about. Not to mention that reflecting and writing to reflect helps me grow as a person and nurtures me spiritually as well.
I need to figure out how to balance what I need to write with what I can actually write, so that it not only serves a much needed purpose, but also keeps things interesting here. Because really, who wants to have a meh blog? If that’s going to be the case, then why blog at all?