Well, I’m not tired or angry any more. What a difference a few days make. I’ve been talking to friends and to my sister, and they have given me different angles to look at things, which I highly appreciate. I worked some, I slept-in some and chilled some. Also, I went out last night and had a few drinks while shaking the booty a bit. I went to mass this morning, I got a much needed mani/pedi and I finished a book which turned out to be very insightful; so the view from where I’m standing today is much, much better than Friday’s.
I’ve discovered a few things about me in this process. (1) No matter how badly a person I care about has behaved, having others trash them upsets me, and I will immediately come out to their defense. Sometimes I just want to be heard, not empathized with or even offered solutions. (2) Regardless of any amount of opinions, solutions and ideas I am given by people around me, in the end I need to do what I think is right and what will work for me, when and only when I am ready for it. The only way I will preserve relationships is if people around me understand and respect this about me, if not, sadly, I will pull away. (3) Time heals everything, and usually brings with it better moods and new perspectives. Yesterday’s debacle can be today’s funny anecdote, it’s just a matter of feeling it differently.
Thank you all. Thanks for letting me vent. Thanks for offering your views. Thanks for understanding that in the end I will do what I need to do to make things right for all involved, no matter how crazy that might seem to some of you. Thanks for letting me be me. And thanks for being you.